Few updates of my life. Kerja sekarang alhamdulillah dah getting better and okay. I'm pretty much proud the progress i got so far in my career. Never once i imagined myself doing programming before for a career. I always imagined myself doing IT support rather than programming. I was pretty much a grade A student when it comes to programming language. Tapi bila berdepan dengan projek that i need to develop using the methodologies i have learnt in all the programing subjects, aku jadi kalut.
So in my case, my programming skill was pretty much theoritical rather than practical. That was then. Now, I am getting better. It's true what my friends in IT programming field said. You learn by doing and gain broader understanding by experimenting. I am glad i took
the step of quitting from Scope to proceed into a new field which I love doing!
However, malangnya not all fine and dandy. I think my lovelife is crumbling into pieces once again. I've lost the willpower to even fight an arguement now. I don't know whether that is me adapting with our constant and same argument. Or maybe it's just me losing hope in our relationship. Right now she's ignoring me and i decide to do the same. In fact that was her
last request. Even though I kinda feel stupid posting a love song in her FB page. It was ignored so I took it down. I kinda wish she sees the progress I made in my sms habit (yes, that is what we always fight about). But it was never enough to even called a progress. And
this always make her sad and unhappy. It breaks my heart to see her unhappy. So now only time will heal.Or maybe not ever.
All i know, I've lost hope. And yes. It has been sweet. At least for me.
ko ok x ni bro? jgn duk dendiam no kalau ada benda nak share.
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