Harini Hari Bersejarah

Harini aku baru tersedar yang i have two hearts. I mean seriously. I literally feel like i have been living with two hearts all these time. Well, at least for the last few months or so. Is it biologically possible? You'll know the answer if you try being me now.

Unfortunately, the other pair is being taken away by someone. By someone who put it there in the first place. Now i feel how bad it is living with that void. How bad it is when you are 'happily living with two hearts', someone claim it back like it means nothing to you. It's like giving a kid a candy and after a few licks, they take it back with force. And worst of all, with no reason whatsoever being given why.

And then , you heard the most painful thing u hear your entire life. 'I don't love you anymore.' Who knew i could produce tears for that simple and yet hurtful sentence. In front of a dark shoplot in Kota Damansara, history repeats itself. I am single again. T_T

Not even pleas can win her back. Not even melalak berkarok in the karokay jamban can ease the heartache. The day started with a good short phone call with the HR people and ended with a breakup sms. Memang hari bersejarah. And sakitnya hati siapa yang cipta sms ni. It is the worst way to ask for a break up people. It's like you are nothing. You worth 3 cents!

Aku akur. Kepada sesiapa yang membaca maybe tergelak suka tengok aku miserable. Maybe someday aku sendiri akan tergelak balik tengok entry kali ni. Aku pon bukan slalu share pasal my love-life but with the lack of outlet to pour my heart out, my blog came to the rescue. Now i always gonna remember that she's not that into you. It was true back then when it all started and still hold true when she broke things up from you today.

Ya Allah, kalo inilah ujian yang disampaikan sebagai panggilan untuk aku repent, aku akur.
Hope tomorrow be a better day although i doubt it.
Sungguh rasa begitu sedih bende ni terjadi after aku buat poem budak-budak in the previous post.
But i'm not gonna delete the stupid poem because someday it will remind me how I was so in love with this girl even though i meant nothing to her. Only time heals and here i am wishing for the best.

ps: Tak terniat aku nak jaja kat orang kisah cinta aku tapi i really need to pour my heart out somewhere. Pasal aku dah berkarok sampai macam ayam jantan pon still rasa sedih. I admit i feel better now that i'm sharing it here.